Sometimes you have to look around for inspiration, occasionally it flows like manna from heaven but more often than not it's like getting blood from a stone. So when said inspiration makes its rare appearance, I run with it. Providing ambition shows up as well. When the two reclusive creators grace me with their presence in tandem, it's bliss. Creative things happen as easy as a duck to water. Til the dreaded second guesses arrive, then everything goes capluey. It's great ideas and I know they are. And I know I can make them come to fruition. But I let temper and temperament rule me, you know the saying... cut off your own nose to spite your face, or something like that. I just get so tired of all the negativity. It is easier to fade into the shadows of nothingness than to stand up and say look this is what I am going to do, yes there will be some changes to the status-quo  but it will all be fine in the end so give me support and some leeway, quash the bad vibes and let me let my creativity flow. The end result might just amaze.  
                 Just thinking out loud for all the world to see........

        Never ever good enough. Common state of being for me. I am only one person. I never stop and still my best is not enough. Yet if I don't do tasks, then they don't get done. Sometimes I stop just to see if anyone will do said tasks. This only makes for bigger tasks because they just pile up.And yet everything  thing about me is wrong, how I drive. The routes I take. Sometimes I wonder....I just wonder.
       just thinking out loud for all the world to see......