Firsts

                          Do you remember your first love? Are they still a part of your life? Better question are they still your first love? You know the story: high school sweethearts who marry straight after graduation and live happily ever after. Alas, all do not. Oh yeah, the Dword. Splitsville. By this time it is no longer 2 people, it's 3,4 or more. Clean break with the extra people put first is the ideal way to proceed but that usually never happens. Bitterness and hatred for this person who you once felt so much love. And lets make sure that we poison the little minds. Your mothers a #%*?/ !!!!!!!! Your fathers a %@*(?:# !!!!!!!!!! He/She nevers does anything for you, I have to do everything!!!!!!!!! He/She doesn't love you like I do, I'm the one who loves you!!!!!!! Yeah makes life fun. What makes it more fun is when they won't actually let go of each other. Both try to move on by involving still more persons in their lives. But they never quite give up that first love emotion, after all they were each others firsts: First kiss,first date, first bring home to parents, first physical partner, first companion, first roommate, first adult relationship, first argument, first compromise, first person you put ahead of your own wants.......First Love. Your only Love... No matter how much you love the ones who come after they are not your first love, your first choice. They are the ones who you settle for, the ones you make due with, the ones who fill the void left when the your first love goes bust. They are a stand in so you are not alone.They are an understudy, they work in a pinch but are never really right for the part because it was cast for another... Your First Love. No matter how much you hate them, they are your first love and when it gets right down to it you still love them deeply. No one will ever take their place.

                     Just thinking out loud for all the world to see........

February Babies

                                       Ah February.....Valentines.....Celebration of Black history.......Heart health awareness ......Mardi Gras.....Super Bowl Sunday...... Chinese New Year.....Ground Hog day......Presidents' day. It may be the shortest month in the calender year but it has the most celebration days. I myself am partial to the birthdays.Mostly because I am a February baby. I know a hand full of others who celebrate their births in this winter month. But alas I do not know one who's date is the 29th. It would be cool to know someone, maybe I'll cross paths with a leap-year baby one day. Our oldest is a Friday the 13th February baby.She hates being a winter baby, no pool parties. I used to say I was a late Valentines present. Funny, because I have never liked Valentines Day. Living in the south snow ain't a regular form of precipitation in our winters, but if we get any it's usually in February, around my birthday. Great present! Birthdays mean more to me know than they used to.No giant parties or anything like that just thankful to have made it through another year. My new year sorta. I take the time to reflect and renew. Give thanks and grieve. No cakes or presents just quiet thankfulness that I am still here. So to all the other February Babies... Happy Birthday!!!! Much love and many,many more wonderful birthdays to come. Be humble. Be grateful. Be Blessed.

                                 Just thinking out loud for all the world to see................