Isn't it funny how you can run the whole gambit of emotions in a single day. Happy to sad in less than 10 seconds flat. Great joy to incredible bitterness at the flip of a switch. How can I be this unstable and still function? How can the people around me not see my issues? I realize they are wrapped up in their own problems but  geez people open your eyes and look past your own nose. We are all in this together, how about less complaining and more genuine  cooperation. We can only survive this if we support each other and are their to help each other, without shouting and screaming.
Without little jabs about being the only one who does anything, You are not carrying this burden alone, we are carrying it with you. Without griping about everyone else involved in this situation, and what they should be doing or not doing.
                   The slightest distraction is completely intoxicating. Just to be able to think about something else other than this life I am living, and I lose myself. Gladly completely without reservation. With no particular wish to return. I loved my life, it was simple and quite, and I liked living it .It was mine. It is gone, with no return insight. How do I conform to this place? How do I survive? We are barely keeping our heads above water and it is only going to get worse. We are going to lose ourselves and each other.  It is saddening. It is a bitterness that devours. It is blackness with no light.
                    Just thinking out loud for all the world to see.......