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                               Well, I made a royal mess of my schedule, par for the course for me. But I think I got it taken care of. Will make sure on Monday. My husband is convinced I won't be able to do school and keep up with my Popsitting, and if I handle that end," we are never gonna have time to go do anything together." Somedays!!!!!! but I am undeterred. I am going to do this if it kills me. Which math might! I can't explain any of this, I am not a goal oriented person, I am not an organized person, nor am I a planner but I see this as clearly as I see the grey sky outside right now. It feels like something worth fighting for, something to accomplice. For myself, not for my husband or my family, friends or loved ones, for myself. Just for me. I never do anything for me, never put myself first in any situation, but in this I am being very selfish. I was laughed at and asked why, " so you can sit on your porch and watch your husband mechanic?" That stung especially coming from someone who does not know me, but yet has the same opinion of me that the majority of people  I know do, that I am incapable of anything. He says he doesn't know me and yet he tells me what and how I feel about things. Kinda funny really. On some parts of me he was spot on, and so far of base on others I was stunned. My husband tells me I can do anything I put my mind to, and yet looks at like I have three heads when I share some of my ideas. Just keep most of them to myself, saves his sanity. If I do them and they work then I show him and he is like that was so cool, if they don't work, he's the first to say I told you it wouldn't work. Isn't that so sweet of him, after 15 years I'm used to most of his ways. Most days I don't think he knows me, I'm still a continual surprise for him everyday. But I make his life interesting.
                          Just thinking out loud for all the world to see.........