Aug. the 1st

                                  Finally, July is over with! May we all have a better August. I already know it is going to bring changes, for me at least. Not sure if they will be good or bad but definitely different. I know I should be somewhat uneasy about everything I've decided to jump into but I'm not, maybe because I'm not jumping into it. I have been thinking about all this for awhile, my husband finally said," if you going to do this, do it, if not shut up about it." So I shut up about it and started acting on it. Now here I sit on the edge of a new adventure for me, just an inconvenience for the rest of the people in my life. Especially my husband, "we'll never have time to go do anything together." and it leaves him taking care of just about everything with his dad. But I am moving forward. As we all should, forward ever forward. Duck when we need to, dodge when we need to, and return curveballs when life beans you with them.
                                              I've done a lot of reflecting lately, I guess because life has been so brutal. I miss seeing my great aunt and great grandmother, we used to run into them at the store all the time when I was a child. They moved out to the country and had a yard full of chickens with plenty of room for a tomboy to romp and play. Then every Saturday my Mom and sisters would pile in the Gremlin and head to Carolina, to my mamas. I was the youngest of all the kids, next closest was 8 years older than me. I was a spoilt brat. Funny how as a child you just don't realize how screwed up life is. Would love to be sharing a piece of hot buttered corn bread and glass of buttermilk with my mama. Watch my papa do the buck dance and try to teach me to yodel. The smell of hot tea.  Painting mamas finger nails and painting her wig mannequins. The taste of dumplings, the smell of the house on Christmas. The tree that took up the center of the living room. But we move forward ever forward. We become the great aunts and grandparents that create the memories for another generation.  Such is life.
                                          Just thinking out loud for all the world to see........