Bottlecaps, Snyder pretzels and Schweppes ginger ale. Strange combination? Well the pretzels and ginger ale were always on hand at the chemo clinic where I took my treatments. The bottlecap candies I started bringing with me after one of the nurses shared a story about a little girl who had went through treatments before me. The saline flush tastes horrific. No it's not taking by mouth but trust me when I tell you that when it is pushed through your IV or port, you taste it. I had the pleasure of it also having a texture. Yea me. Chewy rubber balloon. The taste and texture. The little girl would pop a jolly rancher in her mouth right before they pushed the flush through. Doesn't take it all away but it does help. Bottlecaps were my candy of choice to mask the nasty flavor. Just had to live with the texture. LOL To this day they are still comfort foods. They don't have any bad attachment to them just comfort. I was fortunate, my side effects were few. I did not lose weight, on the contrary, the steroids made me gain weight. Steroids had the worst effect on me. My middle sister, who was the first to go through treatments, also had few side effects during both her bouts with cancer. My oldest sister had the worst time out of the three of us. We all lost our hair. But bald is Beautiful. I am not being sarcastic, it really is. That type of baldness, a form of alopecia, to me is a sign of the strength to fight for your life. To give every ounce you have to remain here with all your loved ones. To keep living this wonderfully insanely dreadful existence. I write this as I sit here munching on Snyders pretzels, no Schweppes or bottlecaps but good just the same. Life can not be scripted no matter how hard we try to make ti turn out how we would have it happen. Life happens at its own whim in its own time. We are just along for the ride. Enjoy it. Live it. Meet each day with a brave face. It can beat you to death, it can keep you on cloud nine, most of us live it somewhere in the middle. Some days beaten, some days floating.
                             Just thinking out loud for all the world to see...........