trying to find words to soothe
            trying to find kindness to gentle
            searching for alil understanding
            searching for alil defineability
            reaching for a hand to strengthen
            reaching for a light in the darkness
            to tired to sleep
            to tired to function
            blindly going thru the motions
            stumbling thru life as I know it
            no ones first choice
            but everyones reliable
            quietly watching as they laugh
            knowing the jokes on me
            oh well atleast they find a brief moment of glee


......just thinking out loud for all the world to see.....