misty watercolor memories.......

                   How did we get to be who we are? Have you ever thought about what and who has shaped you into the person you are today? Does it really matter? Is it things we would like to forget? Or people? Some we wish we could forget, some we wish were still present in your lives. A lot of the the events that shaped you, you actually don't remember, so many things happen on a daily basis that events get lost in the daily grind. Not that they weren't important but average things that just don't stand out. Sometimes its a really stupid or trivial event you remember with great clarity. I close my eyes and still see two smelly billy goats racing across the field to get cupcake papers. Its a funny memory to recall so vividly, I can even still faintly remember their smell,lol. If any of you know anything about goats then you know a full grown billy goat that's still intact is a smelly monster. From the age of about six to around the age of twelve the goats were two of my favorite playmates. Needless to say I was a smelly kid. I also had to help feed and water them, so they were also a responsibility,sorta. I really don't remember that part much, mostly playing with them more than anything else. But I remember raking! with great clarity and drudgery. To this day I hate raking! I remember one of my first pony rides, I was around twoish and all I really remember is holding the mane. It was blond. My sixth Christmas, I was spoilt rotten by every one,lots of stuffed animals, a coat and a dictionary, its funny I think I still have the dictionary, somewhere. Some memories are so simple, my oldest sister making brownies. Picking fresh herbs for homemade spaghetti while my other sister made yeast rolls from scratch. A skill I still haven't mastered. So many seemingly simple things that molded me into the person I am today. These are gentle treasures. As are all the people who have graced my life with their presence. I am thankful for the ones still present and all the beautiful memories of the ones that are not. I hope I left fond memories with them as well.
                      Just thinking out loud for all the world to see.......