six foot from the edge

        Ok so I have been absent for a nice long time and well the world in general has went off the deep end, the entire world is in the depths of a pandemic. Life as we knew it will never return, never. Face masks and six foot distance. My world truly sucks but it can always get worse. We lost my father in law in July(i think, it's kinda a blur) my mom in August. My oldest sister was diagnosed with breast cancer for the second time in Oct and she doesn't carry the brac1 gene mutation, my middle sister is still battling ovarian cancer, she is on the last possible treatment for her disease. My best friend was diagnosed with endometrial cancer in Nov, she has had her surgery and her prognosis is good, we are thankful. And then there's me..... I was diagnosed in Dec with breast cancer again myself. Scheduled to have double mastectomy surgery at the end of Feb. No radiation this time but not sure about chemo, that will be decided after my surgery. My psoriatic arthritis is out of control, was in check til around November then all of the sudden I had a massive flare inside and out. It's gigantically overwhelming, publicly and personally. 

                      .....just thinking out loud for all the world to see.....